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    20060331
    musicfest2006
    shall give a review of wad happen

    firstly. it was chaotic.
    the queue going inside the pt was horrendous
    thanks we could jump the queue n got in
    n with the help of jfoo, tim n clarence
    we got centre seats
    which had a good view

    oh. there was dis guest judge who is damn good looking
    the tall angmoh
    oh my gosh. infatuation. yupps
    haha

    vocal soloists
    1) Irvin
    i thought he would win
    i loved his performance
    it was like cool n classy to me lah
    haha
    2) Debbie
    haha. nt bad
    she was rock n cool
    yuppp. she deserved to win
    3) Christabel
    her performance was the least likable among the 3 for me
    but i still dun understand how she won the most popular item

    Dance
    1) Blaze
    coolguys with the moonwalk
    the footwork was really great man
    i liked it
    2) Risque
    they probably just rocked the whole pt
    so damn cool!
    i loved them the most
    3) escnad
    well. not really engaging for me
    but the dance technics were there
    but i thought they spun too much
    cos at the end of it i was abit gong

    Vocal groups
    1) Joel and Ka Hei
    i thought they were really good
    seriously
    their song is v nice!
    although couldnt really understand the language
    but it just paints a beautiful picture
    2) Hong Sheng & co!
    FABULOUS!
    totally. i was loving evry part of the acapella
    n they won! wahahas
    3) Rayner and Jasmine
    they were good too
    but i preferred the other 2
    yuppp
    n i tink rayner has a really good voice
    lol

    Bands
    1) Daniel Band
    they were good
    i loved the drums part
    but i thought the camels shld have won
    cos i liked their preformance more
    2) The BandITs
    they really did a great job
    despite the technical faults
    but yes. their preformance was great
    3) The Camels
    my hump my hump my hump
    haha
    aiyah. i really liked their preformance
    cos it was way freaking cool for me
    but its okay lah. as long as i got to see them perform

    so the above r just my personal opinions of the whole performance lah
    no offences. yupp
    but i din regret going
    it was nice!yupps
    haha. i'm quite tired nw.
    shall plunge to bed

    talkplaylove
    11:15:00 PM



    20060329
    hah. i guess i'm going for the australia trip
    much shorter n nicer timing?
    u may laugh but i've never been to australia before
    i still rmb last time hearing pple saying they go australia here n that
    its like a common place to tour right
    but right. i've never been there yet
    yuppps


    okays. i'm pissed at myself for nt bringing chem tys home
    i was suppose to do chem kinetics tdy
    ARGH. end up i started reading you-weekly
    watching amazing race
    n no work done
    wth
    anw. i love bj&tyler from this season of amazing race!
    they r like so damn retarded n funny
    but they r good at the race
    n they do nt have any attitude problems
    i just laugh at them n enjoy their race
    i hope they win!
    yupps. haha

    oh. n i have given up on taking SATS
    to hell with it
    its out of my life like NOW
    yes. i will consider next yr i guess
    oh wadevas
    look at the bright side
    i'm saving time n money
    esp the money part
    yuppp
    n i cant wait for fri to come
    music fest :)

    talkplaylove
    11:38:00 PM



    20060328
    the overall decision was not to go
    hai. i thought for v long
    its like my grades r bad
    if i go for the trip
    it will most probably decline like nobody buiisness
    besides lyne n loo nt going
    so pointless for me to go anw
    yupp.
    but i really want to go to europe someday
    n have fun
    yup. i'm also keen into going to south africa
    its like cool to see all the wildlife
    although i tink i will most prob die of a heartattack

    econs n chem are seriously getting on my nerves
    i'm hating these subjects more n more each day
    arghhhhh
    n the tutorials r like how hard n disgusting

    aft sch went to study at library
    the most major thing was probably the huge turtle drawn on my chem kinetics notes by yoda
    WTH
    fugly
    it just like increase my inertia to figuring chem kinetics out
    arghhh.
    but i'm okay w it. like fugly but funny

    came home to find out that i've no music fest tickets
    saddenning
    well. but i'm getting my ticket from justina
    yuppps
    but seriously i tink shld just open the music fest free of charge to the whole sch
    like why shld we ballot n pay such a high price to watch pple perform
    me no understand
    isnt arts suppose to be like erm for appreciation
    oh wadevas

    i was reading the time magazine jus nw
    n i came across a short fact dat made me laugh like mad
    but after that i felt bad abt laughing at it
    "DIED, ADDWAITYA, around 250years old, giant tortoise thought to have been the world's oldest living creature; in a zoo in Calcutta. One of four Aldabra tortoises brought from the Seychelles to India by British sailors in the 1700s, Addwaitya (Bengali for "the one and only") first belonged to Robert Clive, whose East India Company helped establish colonial rule in India. Clive died in 1774, but Addwaitya stayed on in the garden of his estate, only moving to the zoo 100 years later."

    my first rxn was oh my tians
    wad a LONG life lah
    totally stunned by the report
    am i suppose to feel sad cos its like my long before time relatice died?
    haha
    but 250yrs is really long
    two n a half centuries
    oh my tians

    talkplaylove
    11:14:00 PM



    20060327
    i realise its been some days since i blog
    totally forgot abt blogging
    lol
    hmmm. that spammer incident is out of my mind right nw
    nt bothering me
    last week was overall ok
    the weekend was spent at the airport trying to do hw
    got some work done

    ah. i'm quite hesistant abt going to england
    cos of my damn grades
    AEEO
    nt nice at all lah
    n if i go for 2 weeks during the june hols
    what will happen mans
    arghh.but seriously i wan to go to england
    cos its like cool
    n i've nv been to europe yet
    n england from ANTM looks real nice
    n it would be nice to go there n see stuff dat spore doesnt have
    so i'm confused

    talkplaylove
    8:59:00 PM



    20060322
    FUCK
    nv in my life wld i thought such things wld happen to me
    well. heres wad happen
    some unknown guy added me on msn
    out of curiosity to noe why
    i went to ask him
    "do i know you?"
    n the reason for him adding me was
    some other guy on irc gave him my e-mail
    n said that i wld pet for cash
    FUCK! argh
    wth. pple who do know me noe dat i'm nt such a person
    yes. i know i shldnt be bothered by pple who do not know me saying such stuff
    BUT SERIOUSLY
    this destroys my reputation lah
    TOTALLY
    cos with my e-mail u can browse my friendster
    FUCK LEI
    i feel like chopping up the person
    argh
    just want to tell all others out there
    if u ever hear such things
    can u pls give the poor girl the benefit of the doubt
    n BELIEVING that shes nt such a person
    COS I'M NT
    FUCK
    argh
    n the bad thing nw is i carnt control myself alr
    bad habits revealing like free
    ARGH.
    there shld be laws against spamming

    talkplaylove
    11:54:00 PM



    20060321
    gt bac chem tdy
    nt really disappointing to me
    the fact that i've alr been mentally prepared b4 i step into the exam hall
    i need like 4 more marks to pass lah
    so i tink nt bad alr right
    i mean. considering i only did half of the scope of topics
    lol

    aft sch suppose go lib to do my keynsian theory thing
    but ended up chatting w qiaoping n lynne
    WTH
    argh. i only write 3 lines or so of notes den go watch musicfest liao

    hmm. music fest semis was okay lah
    many diff varieties of music
    there were some quite good pple
    some funny scenes here n there
    but i tink the overall standard is nt as good compared to last yr
    just haf the feeling is so though
    but dis yr i'm definitely making my way to musicfest finals to watch
    yuppps

    ok. i shall go do my keynsian theory
    i must finish by tdy!
    urgh

    talkplaylove
    11:31:00 PM



    20060320
    argh. i carnt believe i forgot to bring my hp to sch tdy!
    irritating
    i just feel damn URGH for the whole day lah!
    anw. having black hair feels damn good
    its like the passport to freedom
    lol
    hmmm.
    got back econs mcq n case study
    nt really disappointed
    cos i know thats like the marks i'm suppose to get
    chem mcq
    haha. atrociousness
    gp rawked like nobody buisness
    its like finally the first digit is a 5!
    haha. i've been stuck at the digit 4 for quite long
    means i got improvement right!
    yays

    aft sch there was aquapets meeting session
    lol
    stayed back to watch the sports heats
    interesting
    nw i think i'm signing up to throw FACE
    instead of throwing the toothpick
    die
    die
    die
    :(

    talkplaylove
    7:55:00 PM



    20060319
    nt really looking fwd to sch reopening
    the hols simply seemed too short
    i guess i played much more during the hols
    when i'm suppose to study
    expected
    let me list down the shows i've watch
    1) a love to kill
    2) full house
    3) rain's rainy day concert
    4) gangs of new york
    GONY was a super boring show
    it looked nice on the ads
    somemore its some oscar nominee or award winning film
    BUT
    it was really boring to me
    nth much except a few meaningful lines of sacarsm
    hacking here n there
    n leonardo dicapro seriously need to go do some workout
    i was shock i watched the whole thing
    i kept wanting to switch off the tv n plunge to bed
    but it did nt
    hai. i still prefer the pianist
    nice nice :)

    i'm so gonna suffer monday blues tmr
    n the worst thing is
    i feel like sleeping late tdy
    wth

    talkplaylove
    6:38:00 PM



    20060318
    i love my wig
    i look like some asian doll
    argh
    WIG WIG WIG!
    my hair just suddenly look so damn black to me
    dat i couldnt recognise myself after i dye
    oh mans



    but on the bright side
    since rain's hair is supposedly balck nw
    i shld feel honoured
    n happy
    n blessed
    yes
    :)

    talkplaylove
    5:08:00 PM



    20060317
    i finally finished watching a love to kill tdy
    argh. for the whole show is damn sad lah
    but i nv really cry much until the end
    TOTALLY TRAGEDY
    yah. i conclude i'm someone who cannot watch sad love shows
    make me depress only
    full house is still the best
    :)
    but the acting skills of all actors inside damn pro
    yup.
    n i rewatch the ng clips
    now i find them funny
    haha

    oh. ytd i went out w jingting
    as usual
    gossip session cum update
    we went to sing kbox
    haha. i'm a kbox member nw
    it was nice singing all the new songs
    A PITY its doesnt haf zhang hui mei's wo yao kuai le
    i want to sing that song man!

    why does all the sale happen when u are broke
    ytd was total agony lah
    watch the sale here n there
    but that ugly fact that i only have $20 left keeps flashing in my head
    SO i only ended up buying my rubber bands n earsticks
    which cost $2.50 in total
    well done man

    tdy afternoon went gym w my mum
    ARGH
    why must they do the maintanece tdy
    its like i ran n do some weights only lei
    den dey have to do maintanece
    den obviously carnt gym
    idiotic

    and tdy is the last brown hair day
    tmr my mum is making me stay at home
    so that i will dye my hair
    ARGH
    the days of black hair day
    i wonder how it will look though
    hahaha
    ok. off to watch survivor

    talkplaylove
    9:57:00 PM



    20060315
    i woke up at 8am
    so as to watch a love to kill again
    i totally want to whack dat bae-yong jun look alike
    turns out that hes a bad guy lah!
    he actually tried to strangle rain!
    OMG. slaps
    when i watch him strangle n torture him
    i totally wan to bash him left right up down
    but lucky rain can outwit n outlast him
    muahahas
    a love to kill is getting exciting man

    11am i watched amazing race
    argh. gays in action
    i totally hate eric n jeremy
    flirty n gay
    n when i saw dat nipple piercing for either one of them
    i was totally disgusted lah
    yucks
    that is why reality shows rock so much
    interesting
    haha

    quickly ate lunch n went to the airport to meet louii for study session
    haha. i took 36 to airport lah
    den on the bus ride
    i totally felt like i was going to die
    there was this ah peh sitting behind me
    n he was like playing with his scissors
    oh my tians lah
    i totally wanted to get off the bus
    its like any minute he can stab me n i die
    n he did dat for the whole bus ride till airport
    seriously
    they shld ban scissors on the bus

    study session was horrible
    erm. i finished my capacitance tutorial
    happy happy
    but when it came to chem
    SLAPS!
    i wanted to tear the paper lah
    hai. first it was dat irritating chiral carbon
    i tink for damn long lah
    how come got 2 isomers
    but i only can draw one
    den i asked louii
    she also dunnoe
    den we decided to check answer n see what it is
    N IT SAYS CHIRAL CARBON
    whatever man waste my brain cell
    i wun be able to do dis in the exam
    next was the C2h60
    how can it be the molecular formula for alcohol, ketone n aldehyde
    its like u r kidding me lah
    totally
    or either dat i gong gong
    but seriously chem sucks
    rars

    aft studying we decided to go blk85 to eat dinner
    its been quite some time since i last went
    tink it was during netball farewell
    on the bus 24 dere
    louia was totally going bonkers
    shes like hooked on to the uzap commercial
    shes zapping evrything
    like
    zap zap stomach
    zap zap butt
    zap zap thigh
    zap zap turtle
    zap zap tired
    zap zap full
    n the list goes on
    totally irritaed by the zap zap
    but its stuck into my head lah!
    argh
    ate stingray!
    first titme in my life. haha
    n bak chor mee
    yupp. den went to bedok interchange
    i went to wihdraw money
    den i got the horror of my life
    $20.79 left in my account
    totally oh my tianss
    die alr
    its only 15 March!
    argh
    its time for some major saving project
    yup. dats all. shall go watch tv
    ANTM! :)

    talkplaylove
    9:05:00 PM



    20060314
    woke up at 8am to like watch a love to kill
    haha
    i watch all the way till lik 12pm lah
    den i decided to start doing some carbonyl cpds
    IRRITATING TUTORIAL
    when i went to essay question i totally give up
    chem is really getting on my nerves
    den i realise i'm late for physio alr
    quickly change n chiong out of the hse
    i decided dat i shld take 12 to save on some walking time
    BUT 12 got dis pms n decided nt to come
    i waited at the bus stop like wad seems forever
    when i reach it was 310
    anw i seriously think dere is sth wrong w the treadmill tdy
    or either dat my legs got sth wrong
    cos normally my speed is 10
    but today as i increase till like 7
    i'm alr like taking large strides n going to slidee off alr
    so i ran at 6.5
    n its damn tiring to run at dat speed
    wth
    so i ran for like 5mins n stop
    i come down like fountain sia
    den i did my machines
    haha. update
    leg press-7okg for 10times
    outer thigh-60kg for 20times
    inner thigh-60kg for 20times
    leg curl-30kg for 15times
    FOR EACH SET
    hmm. i felt quite okay while doing them lah
    except for that frigging leg press
    i'm like doing weights even heavier den myself
    i tink nw u wan me to step on some kid
    the kid will just get squashed or sth
    n my knee feels alittle pain when i do so
    tdy physio got v little pple
    only 8
    n i saw samantha dis j3 from badminton
    haha. i know her presence lah but dunnoe her personally
    den she asked " are you lynne's friend?"
    haha. den like got talk here abit lah
    anw i lead the first few drills tdy
    LOL
    cos v little pple
    when i leading i got count properly lohh
    each drill is do 5 times mah
    den later on change to dis other army guy to lead
    den he nv count
    so we spent quite some time doing THAT drill
    seems endless n tiring lah
    den from den onwards we all started counting
    well. there was dis malay he damn funny
    lol
    so wadeva he say i just keep laughing
    i feel so retarded tdy

    after physio go home
    as usual 197 is as crowded as ever at that peak period
    lucky its a double decker dis time
    i found a seat
    but dunnoe why cannot doze off
    only when after bugis den i start nodding away
    but dis time i nv bang into anybody
    haha. but i nv miss my stop wor
    cos erm. my saliva drip onto my hand den i wake up
    yupp. v unglam i noe
    i tink whoever spying on me just have to flim how i sleep on the bus
    can threaten me alr lah!
    haha
    i'm trying to find a new skin to change to
    but to no avail
    argh. i seriously wan to noe how to make a blogskin

    talkplaylove
    8:59:00 PM



    20060313
    went to NUS n SMU open hse

    NUS
    its quite an old place
    but the pple dere r still vibrant
    hmmm. but the campus is simply too gay for me
    i dun like the format
    nor the HALLS
    dey look old n torn
    i mean i carnt imagine myself living there
    i will SO miss home
    the courses r dere r like super diverse
    u can learn all sorts of things but still get a major
    dunoe good anot
    well. i grabbed a million things at NUS
    until my goodie bag was so heavy lah

    SMU
    went there aft visiting NUS
    well. SMU is easy to find n more structured
    the displays r damn good
    n the pple there r much more friendlier
    the courses they provide is much more unique
    u will haf a major
    as in. i dunnoe. u learn wad u really want to do
    instead of all sorts of things lah
    dunnoe lei
    nt v sure

    but overall i preferred SMU
    but the only thing lacking for me is NO HOSTEL
    it will be damn great if there is a hostel
    n SMU is nt located at central area
    so i'm more confused then ever nw for my place of study
    but i definitely noe wad i wanna do alr
    1) buisness courses
    2) accounting
    3) social sciences
    you will realise i'm like kicking physics n chem outta my life
    haha
    so overall the open houses was okay
    help me noe wad i wan do lah
    but as for go where nw
    quite confuse
    shall nt think abt this yet

    ooh. n i finished my d.c. circuits tutorial
    i tink first time in my entire jc life i finished a physics tutorial
    like great accomplishment
    n i mean i did the first to the last question okay

    tdy afternoon i went w louisa to cut hair
    so yoda has a new hairstyle nw!
    haha. so hip
    n i bought my a love to kill dvd
    AHAHAHA
    i'm a damn happy girl
    only thing dat was disgusting abt the dvd is that the chinese is CHEENA DUBBED
    yucks.
    i mean taiwanese dubbed chinese is disgusting enuff lah
    they make rain sound like some gay who voice has not broken
    i carnt bear to listen to a cheena dubbed version of rain
    but its okay since i watch in korean lang
    yup. i have started watching
    i found a new cutie
    thrash bae yong jun flat wan lah
    LOL
    n i tink hes even taller den rain
    haha. but i still love rain :D
    yupps


    ah. another thing. my aqua pet is going bonkers
    its happy no matter what nw
    bobbing up and down like free
    hah. what a nice pet i have

    talkplaylove
    8:56:00 PM



    20060311
    last day of term 1!
    yays. i manage to survive the whole day
    anw i pulled 7 and a HALF incline pull ups
    whatta hell is wrong w me
    so overall i still fail
    sad
    argh. but considering i have improved
    i shall just nt bother abt it
    aft sch went to gym w peiwen &lynne
    haha
    i started running 2.4km
    dere were like this v hip aunty
    she was on the other treadmill
    erm. well. she was listening to her discman
    n while she briskwalk
    she got alot HAND ACTIONS!
    omg
    i control myself nt to laugh lah
    but its seriously DAMN FUNNEH
    haha
    yays. my 2.4 is improving
    v happy
    den i went to do weights
    yes. i must do more weights
    8 incline pull ups!
    den i went to do the cross trainer
    totally disgusting cos i chose the cross training course
    so you have to like pedal forward den pedal backward
    xin ku sia
    den i went to walk an aerobic conditiong course on the ttreadmill
    the inlince is horrible lah!
    once it inclines i can feel myself sliding down
    i was grabing to the handles for dear life
    i didnt want fd3 to happen to me
    haha. the highest incline was 9 lar!
    aiyo. but finishing the course i was happy
    den went home to bathe n go meet yoda to go chill
    we boarded an extremely crowded 36 bus
    where there was dis irritating obasan complaining n complaining
    only you v xin ku isit
    i also v uncomfortable wad
    i was reduced to grabbing the tv mobile lah!
    we decided to alight at suntec
    ate at kfc
    den shop ard
    haha. guess wad we bought
    AQUAPETS!
    it was from raffles city robinsons toy section
    haha
    its damn cute lah!
    u can talk tot the aquapet n other aquapets can communicate with each other
    ahaha. we had a good laugh there
    but paying was quite funny
    but it says for ages 5 and ABOVE
    muahahas
    i bought this purple fugly one
    but its actions r damn funny
    so LOL
    its called purkle btw
    hahha
    i feel damn young nw

    talkplaylove
    11:02:00 AM



    20060309
    i seriously just need to survive like tmr
    but tmr is major
    we have pe
    which means sun shining from all directions
    argh. i tink my heart will just die during pe tmr
    n pe is un ponnable cos i dun haf a mc
    so weighing all th opp cost
    i WILL GET MY HAIR DYED BLACK DURING THE HOLIDAYS
    yes. helmet helmet
    haha
    my brain is seriously v overloaded dis week
    i guess the break is jus in time
    my holidays r alr quite packed b4 they even started
    OH MY
    nth much
    yupp.
    thats all

    talkplaylove
    9:34:00 PM



    20060308
    i'm irritated w that hairdresser
    i told her i wanted a darker tone!
    argh.
    the results is just the opposite
    nt to mention being caught by tan
    argghhhhhh
    i guess i will get a helmet when holidays end
    yupp
    i'm nt gonna spend my holidays with a frigging wig
    arghhh
    nvm. i guess you guys will nw haf a change to see me in black hair
    HAHAHA
    n i really mean dye black dis time
    yes
    i'm jus irritated over the money spent
    n how suay i am
    hai
    nvm. i shall nt complaiin


    was watching sympathy for lady vengeance
    v nice show
    altho the pace was quite slow
    but its really depiciting how sinful life can be
    oh. i also watched natural born killers
    the show was jus irritatingly boring
    it was beating around the bush for so damn long just to make a statement
    i even took a break watching dat show
    but the scences r really AHEMS. yup. like all the time



    anw. doing some reflections dis days
    i realise that coming to jc
    more things r being thrown right in my face
    you have to start learning things that you didnt even think of back in sec sch
    you can form a good image of someone tdy
    but something can destroy it like the next day
    i guess thats how society is working dis days
    i think to survive jc life you really have to be emotionally strong
    well. sometimes i do regret coming to jc
    but on the flipside
    i guess all of us have to face up with more dreadful things in the end
    maybe jc life will make me a better person when i graduate
    i dunnoe
    march holidays r coming
    which means less than 3/4 of jc2 life is left
    argh
    why do time passes so quickly when you have to deal with so many things

    talkplaylove
    7:37:00 PM



    20060306
    tdy morning went bac sch to help out for the cca walkabout
    which was a total flop
    the mood was jus SLACK
    in the end we self declare pack up n went for lunch
    aft that i went to DO STH TO MY HAIR AT A SALON
    APPARENTLY. there was NO DIFFERENCE
    as commented by yoda choo
    n my mum
    ARGH
    i'm pissed
    cos i spent a bomb at the salon
    anw. i brought my body shop lip prism tdy
    happy happy :D
    shall use it soon

    talkplaylove
    9:35:00 PM



    20060305
    moulin rouge is a nice show
    ahhh. i cried at the last part
    i so regret nt watching when it showed in theatres
    also when it showed on tv
    i fell asleep
    but nvm
    at least nw i watched it

    *the greatest thing on earth is to love and to be loved too*

    talkplaylove
    10:06:00 PM



    i guess we always questioned abt why we live
    for the future? for the present? or just simply to keep on breathing
    i know life has its ups and downs
    i know i had my downs before but there was always pple to pull me up and let me cont w my life
    i'm fortunate that i had help
    i'm fortunate that i was able to put aside my unhappines n move on with life
    but dats because things dat i was unhappy were minor
    i dunnoe for sure
    but one thing for sure is pls cheirsh ur life
    we only live once n we shld cherish dis chance to do so
    like i said. we shld always stay optimistic
    we shld always like care for one another
    but since what is done is done
    lets just look at it from another angle
    the agony has stopped
    the incident has definitely make me think more abt wad i'm living for
    n made a huge impact on me
    really. life n death is just a thin line apart
    all i can say to those reading this
    pls value ur life

    talkplaylove
    12:21:00 AM



    20060301
    physics today was
    all i can say was i really did my best
    so whatever the results
    i shall jus accept it
    after that went to lib to study
    hai. unproductive
    due to release of A's
    was like damn excited over it
    for no reason
    b4 2pm alr noe some pple's results
    well. lian po is top scorer!
    oh my tian can
    4 A's, 3 distinctions in S paper, A1 for GP
    this is so damn crazy
    but its like quite expected lah. haha
    den saw some pple's name on the board
    i was thinking. nxt yr at this point
    i tink i will suffer mental breakdown if i carnt see my name on the 4A's or 3A's list
    dunnoe why
    i just expect myself to like get A
    still rmb during release of O's
    the sch was flashing the names of the pple with the how many A1s
    den when 7A1s dun have my name. i started to like panic
    cos its like the possibility of getting kicked out frm vj is damn high liao
    turns out there's an error
    they nv record down my name
    whatever. they shld like stop doing such things
    its like 1 of my senior got 4As too but name nv appear on the list loh
    anw i see the seniors get the results
    i'm starting to feel scared about my A's
    i'm like starting to wonder whether i will survive this year
    since i carnt even handle this teeny weeny small common test
    after watching went back lib to mug
    nth was going inside my head
    there was just exasperation n more frustration
    there was at this point that i felt like screaming in the library
    this is like the first time ever in my life of studying i felt so frustrated
    organic chem rxns n group 2 n group 7 just simply sucks right to the core
    well. u can consider today as a mental breakdown
    hai. but now i'm okay
    i shall jus resign to my inability to do chemistry
    n why is chem postponed to friday?!
    i jus wan to get done n over w my agony
    argh

    talkplaylove
    8:33:00 PM