20050709ytd was another worst day of my life
i told myself i had to get some sleep
but i was damn tensed up
took such a long time to fall asleep
n guess wad. i kenna stomach flu in the middle of the night
how wonderful
so i spent the rest of the night dashing in n out of the toilet
whn it was morning. i couldnt sleep alr
so i go watch waterboys2
my motivation source
den we met in sch at 1045
aud helped me tie my hair
wel. it was the kiddy pri sch style lah
we reached n all
finally the comp started
ours the first bout
i stepped in determined to go thrash dat girl
well. we were losing 4-0 lah. haix
den it was my match. last match
sensei told me dun make it a zero
i was even more determined to win her
i shouted quite loudly i tink
it was ok at first. i was grabbing her
den suddenly i cant rmb how
my left knee got twisted or sth
i realise i couldnt walk at all
not to say throw her
it was extremely painful
but i continued. she got a halfthrow i tink n a yuko or goka
i couldnt do my fave throw. stupid knee
try n try den finally succeded on a half throw
den i cant rmb how also
i kenna ippon i tink
woah. we lost 5-0 to nyjc
once we step out. i started crying
my match sucked totally
i was hugging dawn n crying badly
firstly cos my knee hurts
secondly cos i did badly
i sat down den wrap up knee
till den i cannot stop crying
cos i realise i couldnt stop crying
n i was mad at myself for being such a weakling
my match really sucked
its even worse den my individuals
it was a match dat left me w so many regrets
n i couldnt play on anymore
like how wonderful. 1 month ago i injured my right knee
now its my left knee
but i tink the left knee injury is minor lah
so i dowan to go hosp
its stupid
after wrapping can walk. so i stayed on to watch the girls
we had to play rj to see whether can go semi
lynne replaced me in the open category
we lost to rj 4-1
lynne won her match
i was totally proud of her
she did well. yup :)
den sensei had a talk w us
aft the talk i told myself dat i'm gonna train hard aft my injuries r fully healed
i hope we can send a girls team nxt yr too
since dis is our first experience
yeah. so we r gonna train hard alright!
aft the whole ting i went to see a sinseh
haha. i realise dick went to the sinesh too. lol
well. i couldnt really tell the sinseh how i get injured
cos i myself also dunnoe how. i'm so screwed
well. he do de norms n wrap my knee
i went home lah. my knee totally feeling vv suan
i slept n woke up dis morn in pain
i cannot even stand up?
i fell down once i stood up
wonderful man
i cant straighten dat left knee now
cant walk. i'm useless
act tdy suppose go for physio
but i had to cancel it nia
i dunnoe how i'm gonna go there
rah. i feel terrible nw
i just wan to get healed FULLY
dowan to get anymore injuries!
haix. i really need to cheer up b4 i really fall into depression
n i want to go back to training soon!!!!!!!!!
RRRRRRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHh
talkplaylove
10:29:00 AM
